these two character defects combined make for an extremely paralyzing combination: i won’t start a task when i know i don’t have time to finish it in one go. i also won’t start a task if i don’t think i can do it perfectly (as if there even were such thing, in the first place). if i’ve planned a 20-mile run, life gets in the way and don’t have the 4+ hours available for it anymore, but could still squeeze in 10 miles, i will do nothing instead.
why can’t i realize 10 miles is better than nothing? why can’t i realize making 3 or 4 of the 12 phone calls on my todo list is better than nothing? why can’t i realize that doing laundry and saving the folding for the next day is better than not doing it at all? why can’t i realize clipping my nails doesn’t have to entail clipping my few remaining toenails on the same day as well? and why then am i left sitting, staring at the blank wall, paralized and overwhelmed, uncapable of doing anything? honestly: perfectionism, all-or-nothing, OCD and procrastination SUCK. pardon my french, but they suck the big moose c*ck.