so back in april i was feeling really good (maybe a bit TOO good) and made these ambitious plans to participate in the nanny goat 24-hour race as a walker. then much like what happened for the 9 trails 35 mile in november 2007, the high desert 50k in december 2007 and the avalon 50 mile in january 2008, depression hit and i lost my mojo… to get out of bed, let alone run an ultra.
there is always the possibility when i make plans to meet with a friend, take a solo trip, run a race, attend a conference or workshop, that when the date of the event approaches i will be depressed and unable to follow through with my plans. especially if said event has been planned in a period i am hypo-manic. it’s hard to predict how i’m going to be feeling a week from today, and months ahead even harder.
i’m beginning to feel the “tingle” to make plans again, and i’m feeling pretty stable at the moment, so i may pick a half-marathon or marathon to start dipping my toes in the world of racing again. i can sure count on my husband to keep me grounded to reality when i share any plans with him now.